Love, love is a verb...

Finally finished with my locs. I think combining them was the best idea right now. I just feel that they'll be better off now. I can't wait until they reach their one year.

I haven't heard back from leasing agent job yet...I'm just going to call it a loss on that one. I mean, yeah, they didn't tell me how long it would take to evaluate the applications and resumes, but still, waiting this long just bothers me. It hasn't been a month...I don't even think it's been four weeks, but still, this wait is just not a good sign. It can't be. There's another job position opening, not too far from here, good benefits. I guess I'll call in and see what's going on with that tomorrow. I hate when they say, "No calls please." How the hell are we supposed to do followups on the resume and hiring process? I mean, with the leasing agent job, I'd like to know where my application is at, I mean, what if the process is just going to take a while, but since I don't realize that, I'm just giving up too soon. Grr...

The restricting is proving to be very beneficial right now. I don't know how much I've lost, I don't really care, I'm not blind...I can see the loss. I exercise every night for two hours so that helps a lot too. So desperately I wanted to get some diet pills. Hydroxycut or Hoodia. Those were the two that I narrowed it down to..but I just can't see me doing that again. If I had true self control, I feel that diet pill/restriction/exercise combo would do me some good, but I don't take diet pills right. I always lose control with them. I can't do that to myself anymore.


CPS: 24
STG: 22
LTG: May 14-16

Day 4

B: 0
L: 140
D: 200
W: 4g