If you ain't got no money take your broke ass home...my daddy told me so.

Today is March 1st. Why is this important, well, to some people it's not, but for those of us who self-injure, it is very important. Today is National Self-Injury Awareness Day, also known as NSIAD. I don't know why I tend to make such a big deal out of a day that is hardly known nationally. People who self-harm stepped up because they were tired of being mistreated in the workplace, medical field, schools, and by friends and family. Mistreatment of course, is, in my opinion, caused by fear and ignorance. All of this started in 1999. So, as a person who injures, and as a person who has been mistreated and ignored by doctors mistreated in college and so very misunderstood by family and friends, I feel that it is my duty to speak up as well. It is my duty to speak up and inform people of the importance of this day. Several places throughout the internet I posted up "fake ribbons" with links to various informative websites. I wore my orange today. Heh, look, I'm even typing this entry in orange, and the funny thing is, I hate the color orange. It's one of those colors that I can say, "I wouldn't be caught dead in orange." With that, it's a good thing that I didn't die today. XD It's funny though, my family doesn't know anything about NSIAD. They don't know about it, and I tell them nothing about it. Funny how that works. I could tell the entire world, while standing in front of a microphone that I self-injure, but...if my family were there, I'd probably talk about bunnies. I talk about my self-injury excessively on the internet. I have to talk about it somewhere. I've been doing this for going on 15 years now, and I will say that deep inside I feel that it needs to remain a big secret, but then again, since it's been apart of me for so long, I can't even begin to understand why it has to be such a painful secret, I didn't murder anyone.

I do have supportive friends though, and thank goodness for that. I have friends who actually wanted to know about SI, so they'd sit down with me and ask questions...I wish it were always that easy.

The colors for this day are as follows:

Orange: if you still self-injure

Orange and White: if you are in recovery

White: if you don't injure, but you are in full support of the cause, or if you injure and you don't want people to know that you do just yet.

So...in dedication to March 1st, National Self-Awareness Day I write this entry in orange.