Protege Moi

Today, I only consumed 380cals. It causes such a grand feeling within me, complete euphoria. The less I consume, the better I feel. It's like automatic weight loss, but I know that's not true, but why deny the feeling? It's like I continue with doing nothing right, but I can certainly restrict my food intake. It keeps me focused on something else. So, yeah, go ahead and don't call me back for an interview. Don't review my application...I honestly don't give a fuck, I have something else to do. I'll be a lazy cunt, hang out with friends and restrict, restrict, restrict. But for what it's worth, I really would like a phone call. *sigh*

He likes me for me, but I don't like me...so we will see where this is going to go. Things would probably be different if I was away from home and living my own life. I don't feel like sneaking around to do anything, it gets boring and it takes the pazazz out of anything great. He can't realize that. Even though we are so much alike, I feel that we are living on two different worlds because in reality, we are just that different.