Watch you fade away, fade away...

Today I went out with my sister and her baby. It was nice. I enjoy spending time with her because I feel like we are catching up on everything that we missed out on when we were younger. It's nice. We went out to eat, went shopping for the baby and just talked. It feels good talking with someone who is going to understand and someone who is not going to be judgemental. I enjoy that.

I took the second pill today...I really already feel a difference. I figured I'd have to wait two weeks, but I honestly guess not. It's not major, but my appetite has already deminished. I bet I could probably take any pill and say that it was a diet pill, psych my brain out and it would probably work. Like a placebo or something. Whatever, all I know is that I'm feeling okay. For once I don't feel that I'm at war with food. I can serve myself a little, eat a little and walk away without being hungry. I'm sitting here bored, and I don't feel that I have to stuff my face to get rid of the boredom. I'm sad right now..I'm depressed and angry, but I'm not trying to eat my sorrows away. I'm just sitting here. I'm not even hungry. Compared to what I'm usually feeling...it's like the urge to eat just completely takes over my body...for once I'm okay. For once I don't feel like I'm dying from some imagined hunger.