Lift me up love....everyday.

Yay for me, I've managed to find some wireless floating around, no, seriously. Sad thing is that the connection is so weak it doesn't count for much. Right now I am freezing my ass off, seriously. It's so freaking cold and of course I have no jacket. For the past few days I haven't taken my diet pills, I wanted to see if I could manage on my own, and I'm doing good. I'm not sure if diet pills have long life once inside the body, but I'm assuming they don't...I mean a two day life I can imagine, but anything after that, no.

My mom got in touch with me a few days ago and said that she wanted to help me find a job. Yay, right? But all of sudden, what's in it for her? I'm not feeling that this is out of the kindness of her heart. It's been too long. Almost a year has gone by and no matter where I apply, I get nothing. I got a call from Lowes, I returned the call, but I got nothing back...but the reality of it is, I don't want to work at Lowes. I REALLY don't want to work there, as in, if I did I'd go in to work and cry everyday. Cry my flippin' eyes out. The job at the library would have been perfect, at 13$ an hour, but they never called me back, neither did the three leasing agencies. Kinda makes you bitter after a while. I'm glad to say that I've gotten a lot of rejection letters in the mail, I guess that's a sweet thing to do, right? Yeah...right. I was taught that you are supposed to respond to those letters, what for? "Thank you for not hiring me. I needed the job, I wanted the job, but you obviously couldn't see that. Hold on to my resume just in case you have future openings." I mean seriously, what the hell would you say?

In five months my locs will be a year old. Why does that excite me? Maybe it's because I have absolutely nothing else going on in my life so I can could the growth of my locs. Lame. So very lame.